faith over fear

I was 38 years old when I had the first genuine thought – an internal desire – to become a mother.

so … this is 40.

Here I am. Standing somewhere far away from the curious young lass that nearly ten years ago travelled the yellow brick road to down under only to wander back to her small hometown years later to plant seeds; to see her roots grow. Here I am. Leaning into the woman I am intentionally becoming while…

it’s time to be the garden for once.

You’ve done enough watering. It’s time to be the garden for once. I’ve heard this quote several times this summer, saw it in memes and read it twice the other day on Twitter and Instagram. What can I say, plant wisdom resonates with me. With the past few months feeling more like a bed of…

girl, you are a world changer.

Girl, you are a world changer. You’re a strong mama who is a homeschool teacher, work-from-home superhero who makes it all happen from dawn until dusk only to rise again without a fuss. You’re a community champion who is determined to help others even when it means putting your own self-care second. You’re a fierce…

truth telling.

a list-making exercise inspired by glennon doyle’s passage in “the path made clear” by oprah winfrey. below is my version of the “25 things you don’t know about me” list. as doyle writes, “this truth telling is something that can unlock people. i felt connected. like the real me to the real other people.” may…

waves of pandemic.

When I come to the edge of one ending I often realize that I’m teetering on the verge of a new beginning. The crashing of waves remind me of this: one breaks whilst another one forms slightly behind it. Coming from the horizon, rolling to the shore, and then back out again into the magical…

a never-ever.

A never-ever.  The ultimate beginner.  One who has ever considered trying. I love the endearing sentiment of this ski term, “a never-ever”. I learned it’s meaning the other day.  While I’m not a never-ever or a novice (I’ve been growing on skis for about seven years now) I once was. As comfortable as I may…

i love you because.

i love you because you live with a grace that radiates kindness and a heart so resilient its cracks infiltrate your beautiful flaws the ones that failed you the ones that made you i love you because you see a world shining with good a vision so pure that you move mountains to help others…

just a small town girl.

Just a small town girl living in a (not so) lonely world.  Back in 2016, HuffPost published a blog post titled “13 Reasons to Date a Girl From a Small Town“.  Among them were: She’s courageously independent for making the decision to leave home and explore the world; She’s a family girl – family is…

wander alone.

noise surrounds us. most of it static. infused confusion by the chaos of the mad beat hustle. but here in the conservation of nature i’m able to lay within my thoughts. space to contemplate. freedom to listen to a conversation with myself. to rant and ramble; ponder and philosophize. to speak a nonsensical tangent that…