just when i was losing perspective again – i got this positive reinforcement from an old sock:

“….remember that you are in australia for yourself.  this is an amazing time in your life and you shouldn’t limit [yourself].  this is a journey of self-discovery for you.  you probably felt [closer to him] because he was someone familiar and safe in a place new nd unknown to you….will be a great chapter in your life, but doesn’t have to be the only thing right now.  you are a young, beautiful canadian in australia – live it up.”