a 5.5 hour conversation about the differences between love and lust. by 6am we hadn’t come to a sound conclusion but was left to ponder the following: lust in isolation in order to fall in love you must first know, then like, then fancy the person, then develop a crush, then become smitten then feel…
balanced.
and in the moment when you grabbed my hands to steady my balance, ensuring that i wouldn’t fall, its like time was rewound to two months ago where my heart was a nervous flutter by the mere stroke of your hand. but then the moment passed as quickly as it came and my heart returned to…
hypergoods.
the air is crisp, the sun-bright and the ground covered in golden leaves. i don’t know what it is, but there is something about just walking the streets of this great city that puts me at ease, cams me and really inspires me to think. and of course, once my mind gets wandering it just…
two months in.
two months young in australia. and how amazing it still is. indeed it has been enduring to date. exhilarating and emotionally exhausting at times. i’ve definitely gone through the motions of disappointment, heartache, anger and now at standstill of being content. my rollercoaster feelings have definitely been an adrenaline rush but i’ve come through it stronger and with the…
emotionally delicate.
whilst out for a beer with a friend and having one of our infamous philosophical discussions about life the perfect phrase was coined for my current state of mind: emotionally delicate. not fragile, of course. just delicate.
“remember, you are in australia for yourself”.
just when i was losing perspective again – i got this positive reinforcement from an old sock: “….remember that you are in australia for yourself. this is an amazing time in your life and you shouldn’t limit [yourself]. this is a journey of self-discovery for you. you probably felt [closer to him] because he was someone…
my australian home.
today, i regained my independence. i made a decision with heart – my gut instinct. i found a wonderful apartment – rustic, classic feel. small and warm. that feeling of home instantaneous when i walked through the door. exposed brick kitchen and huge garden patio. its exquisite. and its my new haven in melbourne. and my flatmate, she is…
the things i think about when i run.
while out running just now i was going over my emotional moments of the past 7 months and realized that every single time my heart was always right, always strong. from ending a suffocating relationship to acknowledging my unhappiness to committing to adventure to partying uncontrollably in order to escape to falling for someone unattainable;…
the footy culture. and parading penguins.
two australian attractions that i have been anticipating since my arrival: footy (aussie rules football) and the penguin parade on philip island. footy – australia’s game. so it’s absolutely nothing like hockey or american gridiron but it is a sport that encompasses all the traits that comprise sport: patriotic pride, overzealous fans and intense competition. to me, i felt…
just one more moment.
last night was one of those moments where i wanted to reach out and just hug him, kiss him, make love to him. after what marked my first day of reality in melbourne and his attentiveness so charming we watched a music documentary afterwards listening to the rain. upon going to bed taking one last look at the storm…
static confusion. 